Thread:TheDarkestSpirit/@comment-27358027-20170708005338

I've never been good at this shit before. I get nervous as hell and it's hard for me to talk and you already know what I'm going to do but that's okay because. Okay Deep breath.

When you. Told me. Everything on discord. My heart f u c k i n g skipped a beat. I know I'll probably mess up saying this shit. Mostly because I suck at it. And I tend to fall. A lot. I didn't know what to say after everything on discord. I've loved you from the start. I just didn't know if I wanted to say it yet. I kept quiet for a while. I'm sure you picked up on my countless hints. My desperate needs and my edited messages on discord. All of them told a story. They still do.

Sticker copied and pasted something you said. Something along the lines of "I'm madly in love with you, Jem. Hurry back." And you told her not to tell me. She didn't know that you didn't want meeee to know. But I had already.. partly memorized it. I told you a long time ago that I learned to remember the important things. Everything you said on discord. I've screen shotted it-because I didn't want to accidentally forget it. When you left for camping, I knew shit would get hard. And I knew I would probably end up falling. But I didn't. Not this time. Last night, I realized I was so fucking in love with you. I had to tell. Almost everyone. I told Sin awhile ago. I told izzy last night. They dealt with me rambling on about you for around an hour before they both went to sleep.

"Have you ever wanted something so much that it becomes more than a want?" - Alwyn Hamilton

It's a need. I've been talking to Zeus and he knows that I literally need you know. It's not a want anymore. I've wanted you for a long ass time. But when the nights get rough and I start to break, I realize you're the only one who can fix me. I need you to function. To live. Dramatic I know.

I don't know if it will last-I hope it does. I don't know how long it will last-I just need it to. I don't know how to love properly-I broke a while ago. I don't know if you understand what I'm saying-I think you do.

I need you to be here for me. Because I'll always be here for you. I need you to understand that I need to be alone sometimes. Because I'll respect if you need that. I need you to not worry about me. Because that's my job. I need you to always be here. I said already but it's what I need. I need you to love me for as long as you can. Because I'm pretty damn fucking sure I'll always love you.

Every "I love you" that we exchange, I mean them. Every hug we exchange. I fall in love all over again. You make me laugh without even trying. People ask me why I'm so happy. "Why are you smiling all the time?" Because SOME THOMAS JEFFERSON LOVE DAMN RIGHT FUCKED ME UP >:(

I have so many things to god fucking say but I cant manage to say them all.

Know that I'll be breaking it off with Quin when he comes back.

Know that I'll do anything to make you smile and laugh and just make you happy.

Aaaaaa this is probably too long. And I probably. Really dragged this out. I don't know what I'm doing but god fucking dammit. I'm so madly in love with you that it's no longer a want-it's a need.

I love you Jeffy. 